tentacletrainer | Chapter 27; Text

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Chapter 27; Text

For those whom it might concern
I believe Gamzee is gone.
I am unsure as to where his Pokemon have gone, however the PokeGear insists his number is no longer in service.
...
and
Karkat
Seems to be as well
Under the same circumstances.
I have CG and Haze with me.
And would like to know, if possible, where the rest of his team might be located.
I think I would feel better knowing they are in someone's company and care.

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[Surprisingly? John knew what she meant, but he was trying to avoid that topic because...well that's depressing to think about. Because Karkat won't remember. Just like he probably won't remember the fact that he and John are friends when he comes back.]

[Throat tightening, he rubs her back a little, resting his head on her shoulder and whispering to her:]

Please don't cry, Rose...please.

[[Hearing his request has her trying to choke back what she can, moving one arm to wipe at her eyes.]]

I apologize, John. I'll...I'll stop.

[[Look at her. Thirteen years old and crying. Her mom would probably be ashamed. Likely offer her a hug in a passive-aggressive attempt at scolding her for being so weak.]]

I'm being ridiculous. This isn't something to be so upset over...

No it's not because you're being ridiculous. You aren't. It's perfectly normal and acceptable to be upset over this. It's just...if you keep crying then I'm going to start crying and... [He's too choked up to continue with that train of though and, fuck, are his eyes starting to get a little wet? Goddammit...don't cry John. Do not start crying in front of Rose.]

Don't you cry too. [[Pulling away now to look at his face. No tears? None yet, but he looks like there's about to be.]]

I didn't mean to make you cry as well. This will be the second time, and I will feel terrible for it.

I don't want to and I'm not trying to, just...you know when other people start crying it makes me cry too.

[Wait that makes it sound like...]

And it's not your fault so don't try and apologize for anything. Because it's just...it's not.

I...alright.

[[She was about to apologize, but stops herself when told not to. Sighing, she moves to lean back against him, shifting as Karkitty eyes her lap to invite the Pokemon into it, and smiling a little when he takes the offer. Gently stroking his head and back, she nestles her cheek against John's shoulder.]]

Thank you. I'm fairly certain I said that already, but it needs to be said again.

It's not a problem. This is the kind of thing friends are for, right? So...I'll always be here for you. Whenever you need anything, just ask.

[Fuck why does it hurt so much to say that? Hold on, he has to wipe his eye now. With the and that Rose isn't leaning against, of course. He's not crying though, his eye just itches. Yup. That was totally not a tear right there.]

[[She doesn't say anything at first, noticing that he's wiping his eye though. She would like to say something, but she can't really think of what to say to that. He might not always be here...this is painfully clear now.

So instead, she curls up a little against him with a nod.]]

[Hesitantly, he moves the arm she's leaning against to wrap it around her shoulders instead, pulling her in a little closer. His heart is absolutely racing at this point and a few more tears are spilling from the corners of his eyes. Emotions? Yeah...he's feeling a lot of those right now. Too many conflicting ones at once.]

[[Careful John. You crying will likely make her cry again. Though luckily she has yet to notice.]]

You are also welcome to come to me, should you need anything...

[He's not crying, dammit. These are single manly tears of sadness. Only...there are multiples. But still they are coming only one at a time!]

[He nods though, once again a little to choked up to speak. When he attempts to, it just comes out strangled and low.]

Y-Yeah...I know. Thanks, Rose. I...I will.

[Even though he probably won't...since most of the stuff he NEEDS to talk about involves you...]

[[She'd understand, so it's alright. The sound to his voice, however, has her pulling back to look at him. And the tears have her choking up again. Your multiple single manly tears? Are met with multiple single girly tears.

Again, her cheek meets his shoulder, one arm wrapping around his while the other continues to pay Karkitty attention.]]

...John. It will be okay. It will.

[He rubs his eyes against the back of his sleeve, pushing his glasses halfway up his face in doing so.]

I know...I...god, just...

[A choked hiccuping noise before he continues in a slightly louder voice. A little shaky, but he's clearly trying his hardest to keep it stable.]

I'm tired of this, Rose. I'm so tired of everyone I care about leaving. It hurts. It hurts so fucking much and I don't...I don't even know what to do. I don't know if I want to cry or scream or just...fucking...lay down and try not to feel anything anymore. [Yeah, those multiple single manly tears? They're a thing of the past. He's pretty much sobbing at this point.]

...I almost...I almost w-wish that Johto would send me home.

[[Rose listens silently, surprisingly drying her eyes as she does so. She takes it all in, and stays silent for a few moments longer. And when she does finally speak, it's quiet.]]

...I know this will sound selfish...but I do not want Johto to send you home. I'd be very much alone then, and I don't want to be alone...

Please don't leave me too...

[And he's once again trying that "drying his eyes" thing with moderate success.]

Heh...you would still have Jade. And Dave. You wouldn't be alone. But the last thing I want to do is leave you so...god I don't even know anymore. I can't think straight.

...I would but...I would not have you anymore. And I do not want that.

[Rose? He has no idea what to say to that. Or what to think of that. So he's just...not going to think or say anything. Instead, he's going to turn and face you on the couch so that he can give you a real hug. Actually, he's hugging pretty tight so this might be more of a cling. Your call on this one, Rose.]

[[She is okay with this. Karkitty, however, is not, and with a hiss he clamors once more onto the back of the couch. Upset with not receiving attention, he curls up. This, however, leaves Rose to wiggle out of John's grasp a little, turn to properly face him and give him an actual hug in return.

You may return to clinging, John. Because that is what she is doing to you.]]

Please don't you leave either, okay?

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