Trolls are more violent, more brutal than humans. So I've got this idea that maybe it's a way to cope with that. Moirallegience is too, of course, but this in its own way - and auspisticism too. But for kismesissitude, it's a way to keep from killing off someone from all that hate. Something like that. If it carries mating fondness - calling it 'affection' feels wrong - then there's a reason to actually keep them around and alive. Plus, if you focus your hate on them, it's a good focus for it.

I mean, I don't go not hating other people, but having Dave to hate as much as I do keeps me from like... wanting to break people's jaws all the time, because I have him to go punch and shit.

No fucking clue what you're going on about with this damnation and sin stuff, though. Hate's half the fucking spectrum of troll romance, like I've said before. So we're used to it, and we fucking embrace it, unless you get some broken-brained moron like Tavros who can't fucking hate anything.

But when your range of romance usually limits itself to just the equivalent of the flushed quadrant, it's not hard to see why you have such a mental block over it. Dave did too. Like--well. When I first felt caliginous for him, it, well, hit me pretty strongly. And. I kissed him. So he shrieked like a girl, dropped his shades, and hid in his room. But after that, I tried to just ignore it and go on like normal, but he had to bring it up and make it awkward. That conversation mostly went with him babbling at me about how much he hates me, and it just, fucking hurt because I didn't want it if he didn't hate me romantically. But he just kept going like a numblobed nookwipe without a fucking care.

... Though it sort of ended on a different note, but that's complicated and none of your business anyway.

Point is, he had trouble with it, for the obvious reasons beyond him being a stupid fuckstick.

So I suppose I'm off-topic too, but I don't really care, because it's interesting.