I can say I have mocked myself on multiple occasions, however I've a feeling time 'shenanigans' are involved, and it is not the same thing. However this falls back under the topic of why I could be killed at any point in time, for any reason. If you are not perfect in the eyes of your peers, you are a constant source of mockery. Until they are bored with picking at every little wound you have and have found a fresh kill to make.
And you may have been questioned and challenged, but does that not add to the accomplishment that you still persevered? That you still lead them, and still won? Had it not been for us, as you have said, you would have claimed your prize. Challenged or not, you overcame those obstacles, those travesties, and still lead them to a victory well earned. Beside these points, as I told you before, you simply...look like a leader. You sound and feel like one as well.
When you open your mouth, you sound as though you know what you are doing. As though you are completely on top of things that need to get done, that you know how to go about it. You have a commanding presence about you. And as with all great leaders, you were met with challenges to your dominance. To your right by those who felt they were more more privileged, better equipped, more deserving. And yet still you prevailed. That speaks volumes about you.
And yes, I never had to experience such incidents. I hear my future is grim, yet I have yet to experience anything. However, that does not mean I cannot feel empathy for you. And that does not mean my apology and guilt are not genuine, and are not meant with the extremity of sincerity. Nothing I can say will fix whatever it was we did. It will not change anything. However, I am still sorry. I still apologize. And I still wish I could change it somehow.
As for Sollux...
He simply needs direction. Very little will ever convince him that the universe was not created to torment you all, especially him, however I have found giving him distraction helps lessen the pain. Or lessen his focus upon it. Next time, do not try to convince him he isn't worthless. Simply sit and listen. Sit, listen, and show him you understand, rather than you know he is better than that. Because, although he is better, that is not what he needs. Perhaps find a subject he enjoys conversing about once he has it out of his system. But I've a feeling he simply needs understanding, rather than arguing.
And the fact you are still his friend shows not that you are stupid, nor that you deserve anything you receive, but that you are a good friend. It shows that you care. It shows that you want him to be okay, and simply want to help. That is a good quality, Karkat, one I hope you will keep and treasure. Because there are not many people like that in the world.
[[And now, she finally turns to face him, and reaches over to attempt and pull his look her way.]]
I am unable to reassure you that you won't be taken away. I do not know how this place works, and I wish I did. I wish I could tell you that you never have to leave. That you never have to go back and suffer. I wish desperately that I could, Karkat.
But I can't.
I can, however, assure you that with every ounce of capability I have, I will attempt not to let that happen. I will try. I make no promises that I will succeed, but I promise you I will try.
[[And she lets him go, bracing herself to have all of her arguments disputed, though at this point she is not sure what else she could say.]]
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And you may have been questioned and challenged, but does that not add to the accomplishment that you still persevered? That you still lead them, and still won? Had it not been for us, as you have said, you would have claimed your prize. Challenged or not, you overcame those obstacles, those travesties, and still lead them to a victory well earned. Beside these points, as I told you before, you simply...look like a leader. You sound and feel like one as well.
When you open your mouth, you sound as though you know what you are doing. As though you are completely on top of things that need to get done, that you know how to go about it. You have a commanding presence about you. And as with all great leaders, you were met with challenges to your dominance. To your right by those who felt they were more more privileged, better equipped, more deserving. And yet still you prevailed. That speaks volumes about you.
And yes, I never had to experience such incidents. I hear my future is grim, yet I have yet to experience anything. However, that does not mean I cannot feel empathy for you. And that does not mean my apology and guilt are not genuine, and are not meant with the extremity of sincerity. Nothing I can say will fix whatever it was we did. It will not change anything. However, I am still sorry. I still apologize. And I still wish I could change it somehow.
As for Sollux...
He simply needs direction. Very little will ever convince him that the universe was not created to torment you all, especially him, however I have found giving him distraction helps lessen the pain. Or lessen his focus upon it. Next time, do not try to convince him he isn't worthless. Simply sit and listen. Sit, listen, and show him you understand, rather than you know he is better than that. Because, although he is better, that is not what he needs. Perhaps find a subject he enjoys conversing about once he has it out of his system. But I've a feeling he simply needs understanding, rather than arguing.
And the fact you are still his friend shows not that you are stupid, nor that you deserve anything you receive, but that you are a good friend. It shows that you care. It shows that you want him to be okay, and simply want to help. That is a good quality, Karkat, one I hope you will keep and treasure. Because there are not many people like that in the world.
[[And now, she finally turns to face him, and reaches over to attempt and pull his look her way.]]
I am unable to reassure you that you won't be taken away. I do not know how this place works, and I wish I did. I wish I could tell you that you never have to leave. That you never have to go back and suffer. I wish desperately that I could, Karkat.
But I can't.
I can, however, assure you that with every ounce of capability I have, I will attempt not to let that happen. I will try. I make no promises that I will succeed, but I promise you I will try.
[[And she lets him go, bracing herself to have all of her arguments disputed, though at this point she is not sure what else she could say.]]