trust me, i get not wanting to rush things. i WANT you to be comfortable with me and everything that we do. why do you think i waited so long to even make an attempt at something like that? or why i wait so long in between ever subsequent failed attempt? but at the same time...it's been over a year now, rose. i know that there are no templates or deadlines for how these things are supposed to go. and that it's different for everybody. but i don't see how making out is rushing things yet somehow being engaged isn't? and when you just keep shutting me down again and again it makes me wonder if it's just that you think it'll be unpleasant or something. like i won't be any good at it. or maybe you're second guessing things but since we're engaged, you feel stuck. though admittedly, i am less inclined to think it's the latter because you still seem pretty happy with me. and i like to think i am pretty good at reading you (most of the time).
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why do you think i waited so long to even make an attempt at something like that?
or why i wait so long in between ever subsequent failed attempt?
but at the same time...it's been over a year now, rose.
i know that there are no templates or deadlines for how these things are supposed to go.
and that it's different for everybody.
but i don't see how making out is rushing things yet somehow being engaged isn't?
and when you just keep shutting me down again and again it makes me wonder if it's just that you think it'll be unpleasant or something.
like i won't be any good at it.
or maybe you're second guessing things but since we're engaged, you feel stuck.
though admittedly, i am less inclined to think it's the latter because you still seem pretty happy with me.
and i like to think i am pretty good at reading you (most of the time).